Prodigal Daughter: Passion, Purpose & Purity Restored
1 John 4:18 Perfect Love Drives Out All Fear
This verse first came to me in 2010, a year that would begin a profound transformation from the inside out of every area of my life with God.
When I first read it I remember this deep feeling of love. I never knew God to be like that.
I have walked with God through Fear to Faith, Devaluing to Purity, Self Hate to Love, Corporate to Calling, Lies to Love, Pain to Purpose, and Bondage to Freedom, and continue to.
I would have thought you were crazy. God has radically pursued and changed me in every way.
Photo Credit: Photos by Brock Atlanta
Transformation with Our Creator
To give you a snapshot of how I see God and my life - it is limitless. I believe how He brought me to this planet illustrates this - I was conceived in Bulgaria, born in Poland, in a refugee camp in Italy and in the USA by the time I was two.
I have since traveled to 27+ countries including a mission trip with a Sports Camp to Austria and transformational hands-on retreats I have run in Cuba, Spain, London and more.
19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
Like many of us, I grew up in a Catholic Church. However, I didn’t truly have a relationship with God that deepened. At home, we experienced instability in various ways that included spirituality. I was baptized as a baby, confirmed in high school, and believed. Yet, my foundation was shaky. I didn’t really know God, or His Character, and I see now how I humanized Him in many ways.
In college, I began seeking a deeper relationship with him.
“If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them wanders away, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others on the hills and go out to search for the one that is lost?
I made many choices to devalue myself from the inside out with food, friends, and sex. Walking closer with God, led to my losing over 55 lbs. between 2013-14 and keeping it off, being alcohol free since 2014, and choosing purity before marriage in 2010.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.
Like all of us, God has given me numerous gifts, talents, and abilities. I previously allowed the world to sway me in the external and temporary vs. the eternal and priceless. I was great at multiplying talents for the pleasing of man vs. God being first place.
Matthew 25: 14-30 - Parable of The Talents
I walked through 7+ industries before fully submitting my entire life to Him in every way. He lovingly aligned me to passion and purpose fully. What is even more incredible is God doesn’t waste anything. He transforms.
Romans 12:2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
God Will Move Mountains for You
My most profound transformation began when I came to Atlanta in 2010 in every way. From how He orchestrated the opportunity that brought me here to how He ordered my steps right before with a friend’s wedding, not buying a house in Houston, a triathlon, a trip to India, and my move.
I prayed for a church home before I moved to Atlanta. From my first service at Mount Paran in 2010, I knew it would be my home for a while, and it was. I attended faithfully weekly, joined Bible Studies, and served in the middle school ministry including camps! I chose to get baptized as an adult in 2011 as well.
It’s ironic how God used the middle school service to restore my purity. That year, I was drawn to Beth Moore’s Bible Study, Breaking Free. It completely broke me down in showing me how valued I am, how we all are as daughters of God.
He will give you beauty for ashes Isaiah 61:3
No part of my life isn’t impacted by his love, redemption, and restoration. He has invaded my mind, body, speech like a flood and continues to. He has taken control of my food, body, and passion and purpose and continues to day by day.
He drew to give up my car in my journey with letting go of false gods and idolatry, and turning fully to him. For a while from 2014-2018, I was at Buckhead Church. I first learned about Andy Stanley through the Love, Sex, Dating series in 2010.
He transformed me in my money, walking through Financial Peace 3+ times, and teaching it now. He led me to revelation in money with creating, giving, saving, investing, leverage, and spending.
In 2013 and 2015, while attending Dani Johnson events, I chose to be baptized in the Holy Spirit.
Before she even touched me, I fell back (thankfully two people were placed behind me as this often happens at her events where she is ministering), and I kept hearing fire fall for about 20 minutes or so. On May 24, 2015, I prayed about being baptized again and felt confirmation in my Spirit to go ahead.
The experience was in a pool at the Hyatt and felt like I was literally being engaged or married to Jesus.
In 2014-15, He took hold of my passion and purpose to create FIT Life Creation - an all in 1 lifestyle brand - with health, wealth and business - online and live with tips, tools and tech - helping people create a life and business they love.
What has blown me away is how God has led me to create communities and give back to help battered women, vets, end cancer, and end homelessness.
This is tied to my own story in numerous ways from how I was at five years old to God rescuing me from an abusive relationship to losing a best friend to cancer in 2013 to my love and story with the military.
The acronym was divinely downloaded to me - Follow Love in All We Do, Impact People, and Transform the Mind and tied it all to scripture.
John 3:16, Romans 12:2
In 2018, a friend of mine invited me to Grove at Passion City Church. My heart felt so full with how special I felt, and how special I know every single woman feels.
Song of Solomon 4:1
How beautiful you are, my darling! Oh, how beautiful! Your eyes behind your veil are doves. Your hair is like a flock of goats descending from the hills of Gilead.
In 2019, he drew me in deeper yet again. The Holy Spirit compelled me to read the Bible for the first time straight through. My life was rocked in every way. He revealed to me deep woundings with worth, value, and love. How he has loved me and loves you with an everlasting love.
3 The Lord appeared to us in the past,[a] saying:
“I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
One of my friends spoke into my life in 2019, and mentioned I am like the Prodigal daughter in many ways. The Holy Spirit revealed to me how profoundly true that was. But God.
God has had so much patience, mercy, and grace with me. He has pursued me over and over and over again. Literally.
Be clear my life is in no way, shape or form perfect. I am being pruned and in preparation in countless ways. I am waiting and/or working on several things. Yet, He has led me to shift my perspective to realizing it is for my good, His will, and my purpose.
In 2019, He compelled me to transition to Passion City as my Church home, as well as blessed me exponentially with two other churches online - Transformation Church and Elevation Church. His Spirit has poured it on me.
The abundant and gracious love of Passion City, and Shelley and Louie and the team pour out is incredible. The Crazy Faith series with the Transformation Church completely blew my mind last year.
He has drawn me with worship and resting in Him through Passion and continuously listening to praise music. Some of my favorites include anything by Hillsong, Delra Harris, Kari Jobe, Tori Kelly, Tauren Wells, Elevation Worship, and Jeremy Camp.
As Passion faithfully became my church home in Atlanta in 2019 to now, I began serving with the Buckhead Community Group with Janna and Lake, as well as the Grove team this year. I also plan on serving on the creative team.
He continues to draw me and I have now even published my second Bible Study. My first one was done on Fear to Faith right before I got Sadie’s book on Fearless! Talk about alignment!